Creator God

Yesterday was Erica's last day here in KC. :( BUT, we will see each other soon, I am sure.

Yesterday was also the Omega course, which, as always, was incredible. I am being more and more convicted about this whole forerunner thing. I truly was created for this message, but I have much to learn. Like Mike Bickle said during service tonight, forerunners aren't trained in a day. It does take seasons. So, that's the time I entered into with Intro...and I think training will continue on for a while, whatever that looks like.

Service tonight was amazing. It started out with worship, and they asked if anyone needed healing to stand up. So, I did. A guy from class was praying for me, and he spoke directly into a situation I had just been journaling about that moment. It actually, really opened the door for something, and I can feel the Lord really wanting to get at my heart. So, we will see what happens, but I know that the enemy is mad that I am contending for healing. And some people probably think I am crazy. But God chose the foolish things of the world to confound the wise. I love 1 Corinthians 1:21 that says, "For since in the wisdom of God the world through it's wisdom did not know him, God was PLEASED through the foolishness of what was preached to save those who believe." God loves it when we believe the unthinkable. When we go against human intellect, understanding, and logic, to believe that He will do what He says He will. Because, ha, it often does go against logic. He never goes against divine order, but He LOVES to fascinate His children. So, I want to be fascinated by Him alone, He created me SO THAT I would be fascinated in Him! Which is why He gave us the desire to be fascinated, so that we would fulfill it in Him. He's not greedy or prideful, He created us to receive the fullness in Him!

I read this today in Deep Unto Deep: His desire is for me. There is an intimacy, a 'union,' or a 'marriage,' that only arises from the chamber of my heart. The knowledge of God is different for every heart. Every discovery of God is distinctively portioned and appointed for the person that discovers it and cannot be given away to others. One soul cannot say to another, 'Look what I found in God! Here, take it for your own heart!' For God reveals Himself to one heart according to the intricate details that only Creator knows of creature. Down through all the corridors and crevices of the heart, He makes Himself known in sweet discovery...leaving the soul to always be somewhat alone and separated from others in this revelation...yet forever holding this secret place of communion with its God. In this way, he marries us to Himself in holy union, and no angel or demon, neither life nor death, nor any created thing can separate us from Him.... He is joining our hearts to His in ways never to be fully comprehend or experienced by another. For the same characteristic of God-when woven together with one person, involving that person's individual fashioning, frame, emotional make-up, perceptions and understanding-creates an entirely different reality than another person's encounter with the same quality of God. In this way, He marries Himself to each soul...and no 'marriage' looks the same... What one heart finds in Him is so different than what another discovers, yet none less true...Just as He did not create generically, He does not love generically...For one, He paints a sunset; for another He conducts a thunderstorm. To the heart in need of deliverance, He shows Himself powerful, and to the broken and bruised soul, He shows His immeasurable tenderness.

He is such a good God.